It’s watching game shows and trying to one-up each other. It’s feeling comforted when my pillow smells like him the night after he’s slept over. It’s tackling the immense list of movies I’ve never seen, him cluing me in to which ones are the ones I need to see. It’s him always rubbing my arm, scratching my back, or running his fingers through my hair. It’s poking fun at each other, getting fake angry and trying to be stubborn, then laughing about it when one of us breaks. It’s the way he holds my face with his hand when we kiss. It’s spending a day or more together and still missing him once he leaves. It’s him singing off-key and not caring. It’s being complimented and told I’m beautiful more times in a few months than I probably have been my whole life.
I feel like this relationship has taken me by surprise, both with its arrival into my life and how well it’s been going. Things have fallen into place the entire time and sometimes, it’s hard to believe we’ve only been officially dating for just over a month and hanging out since December. To me, it feels like months have gone by.
Things have been so comfortable and effortless. I can be myself and he doesn’t think I’m weird (or, at least he doesn’t tell me I’m weird). Leading up to the actual relationship, I was so concerned that my life was too big of a mess to be involved with someone else. Turns out I was wrong about that – I just needed to realize it would be okay with the right person. I’m so lucky to have someone who’s considerate and understanding, who offers to help in whatever way possible and doesn’t mind if we spend most of our time relaxing at home.
The overall feeling I’ve had throughout this experience is that this is the way it’s supposed to be. I feel lighter than I’ve felt in quite a while, and although I can’t say it’s all due to my relationship, it plays a pretty big part. Most days I wake up and fall asleep with a smile on face because of ‘good morning’ and ‘good night’ texts. My friends have commented that I just seem a lot happier.
Though I may not know exactly where it will go from here, I know that for now, he’s one of the best things to happen to me in the past few years. I am truly a lucky girl.
I wish everyone a Happy Valentine's Day, whether you're in a relationship or not. If you're single, take time to love those around you and yourself - it doesn't all have to be about romantic love.